Leap...and the net will appear
As I get ready to plunge into the work-unknown, I am encouraged by the cheers and good wishes of those I reach out to.
We don't always get what we want or need from those around us — those we love, those we wish knew us from the inside out. Still, I am learning to accept that though I might not always get what I (desperately) want for — at this moment in time I am gratefully accepting what is being given. And I am being given a lot.
Michelle has known me for over twenty years. For much of that time she has lived far away in Central and South America, we see each other at best, once a year, Sometimes she comes with her family, some times alone. Once I went to Caracas to visit and work. Our lives go on, our children grow, we grow. When I came home the other day there was this sweet Edible Arrangement waiting for me with the chocolate-covered strawberries and these white chocolate-covered doves cut from slabs of juicy and sweet pineapple — with a card cheering me on.
My husband and kids have been great. My bosses at work have been understanding. The decision to leave has lifted me — and kept me up til 3 am and wakened me again at 6. I am going to be on a roller coaster but I have to say, it feels good.
The title of this post came from Teri who has been faithfully sending waves of good karma my way; she said she'd heard or read this phrase and that it might be helpful hear. It struck me as so positive, so comforting, so reassuring that I said, "WAIT. Say that again so I can write it down. What was that?" Most of my life — since second grade on — I've been waiting for the roof to cave in, the walls to crumble, and the proverbial shoe to drop. It is not in my nature to have such faith.
I Googled it to see the attribution and found this on another blog:
"Although "Leap and the net will appear" is sometimes attributed to an unknown Zen source, it is, in fact, a quote by American naturalist John Burroughs. "
I also found a refrigerator magnet, mouse pad, and coffee mug.
I have my first client.